thoughts

that feeling when you find among the vast sea of people, your analog. the one of similar socioeconomic status, similar personality, similar experience, brethren. you find them, not once but twice and it absolutely hits off.
then time passes and you see they went a separate path you tried to follow, but you’ll never catch up
that feeling when you’re completely alone
that feeling when you don’t do as well as you imagined, and much lower than a peer you don’t enjoy
that feeling when you find out a person who you admire, and hope to do well, is likely unable to perform to expectations

that feeling when you once see potential again, how happy, wide, expanse, lasts as long as the shortest thought of reality

it fails when a person fails the see the contextual evidence, and tries to recreate the whole fucking thing, tarnishing the original memory of it

that feeling when listening to the genre witch house / rape gaze
that feeling when the internet is a distraction away from life, away from settling with emotions, it’s a escape that changes and provokes our thoughts

that feeling when we’ve already passed through an age, no one seems to realize how important, we’ve gotten through, and the people who study seem all but irrelevant
that feeling when you' realize you’re studying something entirely inapplicable to your future

that feeling when you realize it’s even worse abroad
that feeling when you don’t want to assimilate
that feeling when you can hear the disappointment in your parents voice

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economics needs to teach 1_ the occupations in which raise their barriers of entry to protect their salaries 2_ while people file share and why it’s a dumb fucking idea –> those who deserve money go bankrupt 3_